Over the past few weeks
there has been a powerful sense of shift and re-emergence. As the inner (and
outer!) winds howled and the rain cascaded down in torrents, there has been an
undeniable sense of breakthrough as the chrysalis cracked and a new wave of
clarity began its slow journey towards the sunlight. For many who walk the
earth, such events seem to go unnoticed as life continues to tick along and
nothing seems to penetrate the pedestrian-ess of the routine. Yet, there are
those of us that seem to feel things far more acutely and intensely, and this
most recent storm has been one of fairly monumental size and proportion.
There have been times of
clarity and times of confusion, times of insight and revelation, and times of
isolation and disconnection. There have been times of light, times of dark,
times of day and times of night. There have even been times when night became
day and day became night; when the light and the dark were no longer distinct
and separate, but entwined and merged in a kind of spinning mass of energy. Of
course, light and dark are not really separate forces, but, as human beings, we
tend to see them this way as it helps us to find context, depth and definition
to life.
Yet, during this storm, our
very perception of life altered as we no longer see things as we once did. As a
result, the merging of polarities and melting of defined boundaries and beliefs
no longer feels confusing, but intuitively it feels right and as it should be.
Although there are, as yet, few words to describe this new way of being, the
vibration of residing in such a space feels life affirming and right. It is as though the vibration of life has
changed and everything is much more itself once again.
As we open up to this
life-affirming vibration, our senses are reaching new levels of sensitivity as
we hear every thought and every heartbeat, see sharper colours and feel the
true pulse of the universe. In such moments of magic and amazement, we can lose
self-definition and clear boundaries to become a fully integrated part of the
Whole; it is as though we no longer stand alone and finally feel connected and
unified once again. It is in these moments that we feel, see, hear, sense, touch
and taste more acutely than ever before.
It is akin to those few
moments once the storm has passed; the stillness feels energised and poised to
burst back into action with a single breath that triggers a chain reaction of
birdsong, insects humming, and everything taking a big stretch as it comes back
into full focus once again. Yet, nothing is the same any more as the whole
world feels, and looks, different; the trees are stronger, the colours are
brighter, the light is somehow more condensed and the whole vibration of life
feels more energised and invigorated. It is as though life was holding its
breath, trying to get through the storm, but in the stillness, there is no need
to struggle, resist or fight any longer.
This moment of breakthrough
is a collective experience, but, at the same time, it is also deeply personal.
Therefore there is no set moment of breakthrough, but a cascading effect as we
each get our time in the stillness to break out of the chrysalis that has
served us and protected us for so long. Some may choose to remain in the safety
of the chrysalis, and there can be no judgement for such a choice, after all,
we are all unique. Yet, many will choose to let go and become One with the
experience in order to evolve and let go; there is no ‘right’ way to do this,
just an acceptance of the process and a willingness to offer gratitude for the
experience.
Although we know that the
storm will pass, during its peak, it is hard not to feel disconnected, isolated
and alone. Of course, intuitively we know that this is part of the process as
it is only by experiencing the disconnection, the isolation and the feelings
these states of being invoke, that we can truly appreciate the value of the
shifts we are now going through. Like night without day, and light without
dark, we need the context in order to truly ‘make sense’ of the experience.
Yet, these emotions and experiences do not define us, they are simply a part of
us, and once we breathe them in, they re-integrate and become a little part of
a much bigger Whole.
Denial of our
imperfections, darkness and nuances no longer serves a positive purpose; we can
no more eradicate these from our lives than we can stop the day turning into
night, but there is nothing to fear about this process as it is a part of the
natural cycle of life. The time for total self-acceptance is upon us as we let
go of the storylines and beliefs that have shaped and defined us for so long
and instead open up to a brand new way of living and being.
We are all a mass of
complexities, nuances, eccentricities, quirks and imperfections; this is what
makes us unique, incredible and perplexing. At the same time, it is this mass
of ‘stuff’ that allows us to find true context in life in order to step beyond
the dim light and back into the brilliant sunshine once again; in fact, we step
beyond the concept of light and dark completely as we take a big deep breath of
life and relax. More storms will come, but when we let go, we realise that each
one is an opportunity to grow ever closer to living and being free...