Seeking shelter from the storm and feeling lost and alone
continues to be powerful themes for a great many souls as we try to navigate
the winds of change and find relief from the feelings of disconnection and isolation
as we venture ever deeper within and open up to the beauty and wisdom that
resides there.
As we consciously open up to connecting more deeply with the
Whole, feelings of disconnection and discombobulation increase as we let go of
the familiar and step into unchartered terrain. Despite opening up our hearts,
minds and souls to the vast and magnificent universe, it can be hard when we
still feel hollow and empty inside. When we turn from left to right, right to
left seeking guidance, support and companionship on our spiritual quests, it
can feel overwhelming when we find no one standing there; watching and waiting
with hand outstretched and a warm smile illuminating the grey skies. Although
intuitively we know that we are never truly alone, we still seek comfort and
reassurance as we walk forwards, and we want to know that there are others who
walk the same path.
Yet the storm from which we seek shelter is not battering
down our defences, the storm is a reflection of the turmoil within as we begin
to willingly dismantle our own defences and stand naked, bare and vulnerable
underneath the spectacular panorama of the billion stars above us and the
infinity of life, both within and around us. When we let go and open up to
Truth, we realise that the defences that have long kept us safe and sheltered
have been the very things that have prevented us from fully awakening.
Therefore, although we intuitively want to seek shelter from the storm, in
order to advance, we need to face the storm head-on and become One with it. We
need to let go of fear and become allies with the raging winds, howling rain
and blackened skies as these represent us stepping from living conditionally
and unconsciously towards living unconditionally and consciously.
How do we ‘let go’ when the storm is raging and we feel so
isolated and alone? How can we feel reassured that despite knowing that we are
moving in the right direction, the winds are still creating havoc and the
cloaks we are wearing do little to keep out the cold and rain? Such questions
twist and turn in the recesses within and yet, intuitively it still feels right
to carry on, to keep on facing the storm and to let those inner defences and
turrets down.
Many of us have, over time, built castles and fortresses
within to stay safe, but now we have to choose whether or not to stay hidden in
those castles or to remove the walls, brick by brick until we have fully let
go. We are in a kind of ‘in between’ stage, where the storm is still raging and
the castles are still present, and yet, we no longer find shelter from the
storms within in our carefully built castles and fortresses as they no longer
make sense to our deeper need to stand free.
During the still moments, when we inhale a full breath of
air, we see beyond the storm and those inner defences. In the distance we can
see a light coming on, then off, on, then off and realise that this is the
lighthouse of the soul leading us home. In many ways, the lighthouse is another
form of defence, but we do not find ourselves hidden within its walls but
standing on the shoreline with waves pounding the rocks and the light shining
brightly illuminating the way. The light shines brighter when we are beyond the
fortified walls, as it is our soul’s way of guiding us home.
It can be hard to open up to the full equilibrium of life;
day and night, pain and love are but two examples of the pendulum that
continually swings back and forth with each passing moment. Life is not static,
it was never meant to be, but when the storm rages with such ferocity it takes
our breath away, it can be hard not to seek out retreat. For those of us moving
through the layers of consciousness, it is hard not to touch spiritual
depression as it represents an awareness that so much of what we once held dear
no longer brings us the comfort that it once did.
Of course, it is only natural to want to find shelter, but
intuitively we know that we have not come this far only to retreat once again.
The going is tough but the light is breaking through like the rays of the sun
creeping over the hills in a new dawn; the process feels slow and arduous at
times, but when we re-centre, we realise that we are making progress; we can then
bathe in the light of the new dawn with a sense of inner satisfaction that we
are nearing home.
Home in this context is unique to the individual; after all,
we all have our own Truth and our own spiritual awareness. Even though we may
still feel isolated and alone as shift upon shift seeps into our psyches,
intuitively we know that the only way to seek solace is to ride the waves until
we reach that point of stillness where everything slots into perfect alignment
once again. No one said that spiritual awakening would be easy, but, as human
beings, the relentless pounding of the energetic and spiritual storm has taken
its toll. We need respite, reassurance and reconnection.
The more we open up to the light within and to realising
that we are the ones dismantling those castles and fortresses, then we shift
from disempowered and confused to re-empowered and a little less confused.
Okay, so we might want crystal-clear clarity, but we have to have faith and
trust that this will come in time, for now, we need to reclaim equilibrium as
best as we can and give ourselves a break from constantly trying to push ahead
to get to where we think we need to be.
The storm might feel chaotic and full of turmoil but it is
also cleansing, healing and renewing; feel the vibration change and this will
begin the shift from isolation to re-connection as we no longer seek shelter
from the storm but we find joy by opening up to its power and energy in order
to be cleansed and set free...